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Lax @lax

My safe space, journal for until I get back up on my feet

688 Had a work chat today, and it was the usual blah dadida blehblehbleh.. had to stop myself from rolling my eyes so many times

687 What a day... went all the way to the workout studio to realise I didn’t book a class.. and it was full..

688 Started the day rather shitty, train got cancelled, dropped and spilled my moisturiser... at least I ended it with something that I’ve been putting away for a while.. a quick sketch shows that my skills are a bit rusty since...

689 Ended up not going to the club because I was tired..felt good because of that decision made

690 Hampstead Heath was breathtaking today

691 Went for a stretching/physio session today, so I’m gonna sleep like a baby tonight, I hope.

692 Eye candy in the office turns out to be straight....pfftt.. haha That said, can’t believe I’m gonna go to the gay club again this weekend, (tired already).. well, at least it’s with a cute friend from my workplace

693 Started to plan my weekend now...and I guess I’m making progress towards healing...5 months it took to even start looking ahead...

694 I’m getting really interested in learning about gymnastics specifically the rings, anyone knows where you can pick that up? I want to spin around and do all those turning things just for fun

695 Been thinking about how I wanna use my time...what deserves my attention, what should I focus on...what do I want to achieve for myself..

697 Somehow miss him even more today, after coincidentally receiving a text the moment I arrived at his resting spot. Surprised me to hear his voice. Especially given that my text tone was him telling me “I love you”

698 Need to get back to drawing with pastels... have been pushing it back for a while but it’s something that I enjoy doing

Next’s forward roll!

699 Looking forward to weekends when there are plans with friends🤍 Also been skiving off and not pushing myself with exercising more often Mental note* to do it more if I want to achieve my goal

700 Can’t believe I’ll say this but got a little vexed after a bunch of people started messaging me.. while I know they care, it feels like a bit much to reply everyone of them

701 Miss him even more now it’s dark and Christmas is approaching. Sometimes, I feel like I shouldn’t openly express this kinda things on platforms like these...

702 I feel like I’ve been only writing “safe” stuff because I was afraid of it being too close to the heart and forgot the purpose of journaling in the first place. Feels absolutely exhausted from the party during the weekend and will not do it any time soon.

Tick off the box now 703

I feel old, going out at 11 is challenging 704

Did nothing all day 🤍 705

Mood drops dramatically whenever I’m tired 706

Has anyone been to Roast? How’s the music/experience? 707

Been a stressful day 708

Had an extremely quiet Monday, in a good mood 709

Got a haircut and Confidence back to 100 710

Just had the reclette at borough market & day is made 711

Felt unproductive even though, I’ve done all the chores needed for the weekend 712

Got new shoes 😍 Can’t wait to show them off 713

On the way home 714

Had a great time at the calisthenics class 715

Off to a hectic Monday 716

Gorgeous day 718

Harder nights 719

Just going through another day Time doesn’t make any difference now 720

Hey baby, watch it for both of us. 721

Magicarp use splash 722

Can’t believe it’s been 4 months since.. 723

Stomach’s been feeling weird all day... If only he’s still here... 724