Noel (@macaronimistress) Boston • Collective gay friends app

Noel @macaronimistress

Stuck somewhere between controlling what I can and going with the flow

Boston, US

travel

food

horror movies

languages

teaching

italy

filipino food

pokemon

body mods

jewelry

My spirit is so truly broken

Got denied from my third n final PhD program. My life is really falling apart

Why is rabbit so expensive 😭 they make more so fast

Got denied from another program today… future is looking really bright

Got denied from my dream school PhD program. Everyone was right! I can’t do it!! I’m a failure!!! I should’ve known my place

La tristezza mi circola come il sangue nelle vene

When does it get easier? I’m pushing 30 with the same disdain for being alive that I had at 14

Any advice for raising self-esteem in a one-sided open relationship?

Penso di uccidermi. Like, a nessuno fa differenza ed a nessuno cambia l’idea che io non valuto una merda

If I die tonight, will anyone remember me for who I was? Did anyone ever really see me?

When do I get to feel wanted in the way that you want everyone else?

Valentine’s Day nails :^)

Mi voglio uccidere. Non riesco più a vedere qualcosa di buono nella mia vita ora. Sono da solə, senza soldi, senza qualcuno che mi ama veramente per quello chi sono.

Non so cosa devo fare però il mio tizio non capisce come vivo come lavoro e come sopravvivo. Scusami ma, sono insensibile per dire che non ha dei problemi?

If you can’t make me whole, maybe I can drink enough to fill the parts of myself that I’m missing

I can’t wait to build a stack with more pieces :^)

Se c’è qualcuno qui a Boston che cerca un’amicə che parla l’italiano sono qui 🥺👉👈

When will I be enough that my personhood will come before a man’s sexual gratification? When will I learn what’s wrong with me?

Quando toccherà a me? Di essere felice, di essere stata amata? Quando sentirò bella, che qualcuno mi ama e non ha occhi per qualcun’altro

Late 20’s failing at life n stumbling forward kinda mood

Anyone have information on how to become a medical interpreter? I’m finding conflicting information online

Anyone in the Boston area want to connect? Would love to form community here

Pancakes 🥞 or waffles 🧇 ?

Il mio stato di essere stanotte dopo 4 bicchieri di vino

Queer and gender non-conforming friends — how do you deal with conventional attractiveness being the social currency you need to spend to navigate Gay™️ spaces? Because I almost feel worse entering a bar and seeing a bunch of buff blonde boys who have no fats no femmes no Asians in their Grindr bios

When do I get to be happy? When do I stop feeling so worthless?

I moved to Boston from LA a few years ago, and they weren’t kidding when they said Boston is one of the loneliest cities in the US