Very strange but it’s true: I met up with a white LA guy on Grindr cuz he’s in the same food hall as me. I know Grindr conversations are perceived to be sexually charged but this one is so wholesome. I came over and said hi and we started talking. It was wonderful to talk to him about my thoughts on Toronto and quickly we exchanged pretty serious thoughts. We then went our separate ways. This encounter is memeorable because it happened so organically and was not sexually charged at all. It’s simply two human beings from the same community having what is probably a one-time serious conversation. I try to be spontaneous and let my instincts dictate :) I’ve realized that I’m lonely in the sense that my loneliness comes from an insufficient amount of interactions that cover topics that speak to the deepest part of my mind: friendships, adulting and relationships.

Full disclosure: I’ve zero intent to build myself as an influencer. I’m happy being the average version of myself. Question: the increasing number of influencer wannabes on social media is worrying (is it and why?) what kind of influence do these wannabes want to wield? Or they simply want to make some quick cash when they are still young and beautiful (a leg up so to speak)? Will they end up being lonely and alone when they have what they want initially.

Had a nagging question: everyone says that they want to be their true authentic self. What if that’s simply a pointless statement when they haven’t examined whether they perceived their true self erroneously. Think this: an obnoxious gay guy can both be their authentic self but interrupting the public peace. Just some random thought that I put down here cuz my thinking needs an outlet. Not just my pictures.