Alex (@a.praglowskaya) • Collective gay friends app

Alex @a.praglowskaya

I get high and write some bs here.

One of my favourite moments in friendships/relationships is when you get to see their childhood album.

I want to find such a cool person who I can use the word “mathematical” with, as an expression of fascination. But they have to be very smart.

My favourite part about my face is that it’s a little ugly. (I do not have insecurities about my physical appearance)

Sometimes I think of the places I’ve been at for the last time in my life but in the moment wasn’t aware of it, like the last time at classmate’s house. Or seeing someone for the last time. The last time I saw my neighbours from my childhood, an aunty that lives in another city, that neighbour’s daughter who used to play with me. They didn’t get a “goodbye” and never will. Remained faded into time.

I’m ready to fall in love again. I wrote it. You see. It has been put out there. I’m ready to open the new chapter. Now leave me alone.

Can we apply the phrase “it’s your parent’s first time living too” to the government? It’s their first time living too, how the fuck did we get that controlled. It’s so crazy how little it takes to brainwash us. Start from kindergarten and by 30 we fully formed to believe that this is it. Some of us gained religion through those years, some unwanted families, and some got stuck in front of a screen 9-5, 5/2, but truly believe that it’s very important and it is what we want. We compromise relationships and fun over made up “valuable paper”. We disconnected from who we are, what we want. It’s almost like they want us to ignore our inner selves because they know that there are the answers so they put us in fear. Is maturing means kill your inner child? Is inner child is who you supposed to be? It can’t be real that we all are the results of our parent’s treatment and no one notices it. And the whole system is just someone’s dream, design, product of the human mind.

I was always so unserious about my life that I don’t even know if I was oversharing or just telling a cool story.

Date idea: we are going to break the law by talking to dolphins.

Each day I’m getting more confused in this world. She brought up a situation about someone, being confused about their intentions. She said “ do they want to be friends or do they just want to fuck”. It was more likely a hint of what my intentions are towards her. But few years back for some reason I taught myself not to assume anything unless been told directly. Therefore without that assumption I thought that if I tell her what I think of it from my perspective according to my observation of my own existence, it would look like “I’m making everything about me”. But even so, how do I explain to someone that I need everything to be magical and it’s hard for me to have any intentions with the person I barely know? Yes, it takes me awhile to get sexually attracted to someone. I was already forcing myself to be interested in her. What am I doing?

Make sure to do at least one thing each day that makes you feel less of a function and more of a human.

I’m gonna be honest, going no contact with my family does creep me out when I realise how they’re becoming strangers.

I believe that eventually we will reach the version of perfect human society and it will be matriarchy in indigenous mindset, passing knowledge from one generation to another without violence. Armies, weapons, nuclear will be erased of the planet. We will get there by art. By artists who create today. Those who make us think and question. Those who chose the truth. Those who chose the growth. Every single person on this planet has created some piece of art and every single person has been inspired by art at least once, every single person finds art valuable. Art only reflects the reality that going through time. Art calls feelings, calls who we actually are. Please never be ashamed of expressing yourself, the truth, the feelings. This is exactly what unites us all.

5 minutes of small talk drains more of my energy than someone just being alive, being human and wants to rant for 2 hours. Indeed I feel more fulfilled since we are sharing human connection.

– So what else was a lie? – – Noooo. – “Good always triumphs over evil.”

Just quit my job because of slightest disrespect and neglect. Gen z moment 🤙🏻

Chapter 34: Human society was completely opposite to what we have now. Abuse, violence and victim blaming were absolutely normalised and even glamorised. People used to believe that unarmed people were the aggressors over the people on tanks. It was so absurd to the point that people could blame literal clothes rather than making the aggressor responsible for committing acts of violence. We were very greedy on empathy. Selfishness and individualism were on the rise. Our minds were fogged up, temporarily we disconnected with the sense of community. We all lived in the illusion of the main character. We were often neglecting each other, time to times every person had a struggle to imagine that anyone else out there would be experiencing similar things. “

Omg imagine woman’s history book in 2325 is gonna have a chapter like that: “Within first 100 years of women receiving their first rights a lot of us were a little confused and lost. Women were slowly getting more rights, but not freedom. They were lost and therefore didn’t know how to live for themselves. They could participate in a competition with each other to get men’s attention. It was done by men’s propaganda, women were manipulated to hate each other, they were manipulated to do harmful surgeries to change their physical appearance. As well known fact how common pedophilia is, blinded women were trying to be perceived young and “innocent”, they could purposely speak with a higher voice to sound like a teenage girl. Women were shaving their entire body for the same reason... I feel goosebumps to think of what our grandmothers had to go through to give us today’s peaceful sisterhood. “

When I’m hurt I cook and bake for my neighbours, colleagues and even my landlord’s fiancée to make the world a little better.

I don’t like how you treat others so I don’t like you.

As a kid I liked to hide in the closets, under the couches, in the cupboards, etc and pretend like I’m part of the furniture.

I’m this type of person who says “Yes” to strangers when they ask me to share a table with me at the coffee shops. Last time it was an old couple, one of the interesting facts they told me is that Sydney used to have a lot of trams and instead of Opera House it used to be a tram depot. Government got rid of it, so people would have to buy cars and spend money on fuel. Fuck capitalism.

Does it count as healing if I start recognising toxic patterns and consciously choose to fall for them? All this healthy shit honestly so boring

Can we normalise having opinions that actually based on something? Give me this overanalysed report, some evidence, preferably real life experiences, some scientific studies on the subject (if applicable). I also would love a little doubt in case you’re wrong and see how you handle it.

I was never a techno/rave girl, but always loved the vibe and the culture. I was there for the people. Now it feels it’s been stolen. It became a trend that attracted wrong people. Where do I find a safe space now?

I’m not autistic. I just don’t want to fit in into this toxic culture where you’re required to be fake, lie and pretend. Lies always made me feel depended. Like you have some sort of power over me and I can’t be myself and honest around you.