Alex (@a.praglowskaya) • Collective gay friends app

I’ve been going to my neighbour’s house to practice piano. My music teacher suggested to buy my own keyboard, I was considering it and I can afford one but I decided not to. I realised that I’m building a connection with my neighbour by asking her for a little favour. And I make sure she doesn’t hesitate to ask me for help if she needs it. She used to offer me money for the help I gave her and I never took it, I always felt wrong about it. People asking for help, not offering a job. I personally struggle asking for help and always have been hyper independent. I believe that if you want to change the world start from yourself, I want the world to have more sense of community so I start building it. I want to see life outside of money system. Help makes us feel needed. Also I don’t want her to feel uncomfortable being in the constantly asking position. She is just an old lady who is passionate about her art. There is life outside of bad experiences, I don’t want to let other people’s greed take away the purity of being human.

I swear I don’t remember what you’ve done but I just built this feeling inside that tells me to stay the fuck away from you no matter what.

I feel so narcissistic writing cover letters

A 24 year old woman has been found dead in the suburb next to me, stubbed multiple times in the back, lying on the sand facing down and police said that it was self-harm. Which is obviously a bs version has been thrown out there to make people quickly talk and forget. I’ve been asking locals about her and everybody seems to be uncomfortable to talk about such stuff. A WOMAN IS DEAD can you for once shove your feelings up your ass. Imagine being killed and no one talks about it or even trying to find out your name. At this point I’m not even mentioning justice.

I wish to see people dancing and singing on the street everyday. It would make me happier.

Does anyone want to open a business where we could split the profit evenly so in that way no one gets exploited? For me to live a comfortable life I’d need $1500 - $2000 p/w. So if you have higher bills to pay (medical, relatives, debts, ect.) you can take more from the profit, everyone would calculate their needs and that would be your pay if we have money left we could help others, or expand the business to employ more people. And let’s make it something fun.

People often assume that I’m a bougie diva because I refuse to support child slavery (I buy new piece of clothing 2-3 times a year, new shoes every 1-3 years)

Deep connections & vulnerability.

Practicing at my neighbour’s

I picked up a new challenge today and started to learn piano. My brain has shuttered into million pieces. But I don’t care I’m gonna continue. Last year I started to learn Muay Thai and I’m still going. I can’t really compare though physical challenge is much easier than mental.

I’m so proud of myself for my healing journey. If I was putting all this effort into making money then capitalism would no longer exist cause I’d have all the money. I’ve been taking the smallest steps as I could to carefully drag myself out of the deep dark pit, absolutely alone. Unfortunately, a lot of people preferred to stay out of it and it is for the best. I’m so grateful for not giving up on myself and keeping on pushing. There were a lot of failures but I managed to give myself the support I needed and not beat myself up for it. I kept on getting up and continuing fighting even though i couldn’t even see where am I even heading to, even when it felt absolutely hopeless. I’m proud to say that I finally started to see the rays of light, I started to regain the trust with myself, the confidence, the power. My relationship with myself was very tough and toxic, but now it’s the best and the only one I have. I’m happy that I failed at ending it back in 2023.

“Nice” people be like: “I acknowledge that my privilege would never let me understand what it’s like to live like the rest of the world........BUT SO DO YOU!!!!!! AT LEAST I CAN ACKNOWLEDGE IT AND YOU DONT CAUSE YOURE BAAAAD!!!!! AND DONT YOU DARE TELL ME ABOUT YOUR EXPERIENCES BECAUSE YOU JUST SELF CENTERED AND TRYING TO MAKE EVERYTHING ABOUT YOURSELF I KNOW IT BECAUSE YOURE BAD YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELF YOU LOOK LIKE YOUVE GOT A LOT OF PRIVILEGE BUT YOU SO IGNORANT TO SEE IT AND IM NOT CAUSE IM A GOOD FUCKING PERSON!!!!! I CARE AND IM SO EMPATHETIC MY HEART IS FULL OF LOVE IM COMPASSIONATE” *tells all the “good” (decent human) things they’ve done in their life*

I saw a guy from my gym blowed his nose in his hand and then wiped it over his shorts Note: Australians also often walk with bare feet on the ground with piss, shit and snot.

Let’s shame people for not washing their hands after using the bathroom. Yeah, you will make them feel ashamed and uncomfortable but they’re putting public health at risk.

Fortunately, I’ve never forgiven anybody who hasn’t asked for forgiveness.

I won’t be trying to prove that I’m a good person because I’m not.

I lost my ability to dream big due ptsd.

New conspiracy theory: Melania was trafficked.

I don’t want to sound like a boring pick me but I think loving car industry is quite reasonable. There is something about cars, about driving, having that control over something that puts your entire life in risk. Knowing that you’re so close to death if you do something slightly wrong.

I’ve been left on sent by 8 different people on three different apps. What’s going on?

I pay very close attention to people and situations that appear in my life, I know that they all mean something. At the moment (they all new people) I have: - a person that I need to practice to set boundaries with; - a person who sees me for who I am and very closely matching my views (it’s the proof that there is nothing wrong with me); - a person who puts me into dilemma between having the urge to rescue/to warn them and letting them learn on their own mistakes (I have tendency to fail this each time they appear); - a person who I need for the jump start by their encouragement and energy (they’re bringing back the unstoppable and highly motivated version of me, the confidence); - an old me; - a person who reminds me to stand up for myself instead of staying silent; - a person who reminds me to stick to my values. Important to mention that I’m in my great healing era, so I feel quite safe to practice each lesson at this period of my life.

Begging for the rest of your life to see you as a human being is the answer.

Name a moment in history when someone has changed their mind on the certain believe straight after the law came out? How many people have you met that have changed their believes after having a conversation with someone who made them feel understood?

As it was in one song “Your politicians piss on your faces, but it doesn’t disturb your comfort.” Western people win they even have empathy for them. Absolutely saint people, angels with huge hearts.

If women weren’t fed for centuries the propaganda of how unworthy and unvalued they are they would never let their children have names of some random man. It’s such a basic logic if it came out of me, I sacrificed the most for it, I’m the one who put the most effort and energy into it than it is mine. The father would never be able to give the child as much as the mother. Even if the mother dies during labour, but in this case it should be even more honourable to have mother’s name. Reanalysing cases like this can help you to relearn how to love yourself and take what’s deservedly yours. Stop being so humble.

Charlie Kirk’s case is the only time when victim blaming is appropriate.

I don’t know what the fuck it was,but I’ve been having nightmares for the past few days. And a couple of days ago I had a sleep paralysis on top of it, and during the paralysis I could hear very clear and realistic my mother’s voice like she was talking right in my ear, but she wasn’t there, just the voice like she was coming from astral. All what she said was “Alexandra...can you hear me?” After that I started to breathe very fast because it’s all I could do. Me and my mother are at no talking terms for over a year now.

I just want to find a wife and run away with her to a farm where we gonna have solar panels, well and fireplace. We will grow our own vegetables, play music instruments, make paintings and read books. Would be cool if we also had friends with the same farms around and we could’ve barter some stuff if we need to. I could’ve make clothes for them. And we could all dance around fire everyday and have a community where we help each other to live peaceful, fulfilling, wholesome, slow life.

Okay so, earlier I wrote a post about Telegram where you can charge your followers for commenting on your posts. And my point was that we are getting lonelier and our basic social instincts are getting monetised. Now I found out about friend.com, which is an ai friend that you carry around like an AirTag and it messages you throughout the day and remembers every little thing about you and gives all the attention you’ve been craving for.

Men be like: women are so emotional. And then open a bike club with unnecessary violence.

I just remembered that you can be as weird as you want as long as you dress cool.

I’ve just noticed something fucked up. The messenger “Telegram” becoming a totally different type of social media. Users have their normal chats and their own channels where all their friends could comment. In the latest update of telegram they added a feature to charge their followers for leaving comments. They also offer Telegram premium which is a monthly subscription that can unlock more features in the app. It seems as classicism, if you have money you can do more. We are getting charged for talking to each other and have opinions, for simple communication. How did we sell our instinct to socialise to capitalism? Also let’s consider the fact that loneliness is on the rise. We are losing control and power as a society. We need to increase the amount of human interactions outside of the internet urgently. The problem is that we all has been feeding our egos and rejecting each other for the smallest flaws and imperfections. We sold love. How could we lose the only thing that we thought it would never be possible to sell? Goodbye love, I hope our hearts will melt soon and you’ll come back.

If you think about it then “normal” is whatever the majority is. But minority doesn’t always mean “not normal” it’s just one of the variations of “normal”. According to this logic neurodiversity would be the minority which could perhaps be the real and only “normal”, then the world actually going insane because most people are insane.

The goal for the next weeks and onwards: giving people compliments without feeling like I’m sexually harassing them. (I’m still gonna be sincere and I ain’t saying shit just to be nice. I respect and value my words!)

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