Alex (@a.praglowskaya) • Collective gay friends app

I’ve been left on sent by 8 different people on three different apps. What’s going on?

I pay very close attention to people and situations that appear in my life, I know that they all mean something. At the moment (they all new people) I have: - a person that I need to practice to set boundaries with; - a person who sees me for who I am and very closely matching my views (it’s the proof that there is nothing wrong with me); - a person who puts me into dilemma between having the urge to rescue/to warn them and letting them learn on their own mistakes (I have tendency to fail this each time they appear); - a person who I need for the jump start by their encouragement and energy (they’re bringing back the unstoppable and highly motivated version of me, the confidence); - an old me; - a person who reminds me to stand up for myself instead of staying silent; - a person who reminds me to stick to my values. Important to mention that I’m in my great healing era, so I feel quite safe to practice each lesson at this period of my life.

Begging for the rest of your life to see you as a human being is the answer.

Name a moment in history when someone has changed their mind on the certain believe straight after the law came out? How many people have you met that have changed their believes after having a conversation with someone who made them feel understood?

As it was in one song “Your politicians piss on your faces, but it doesn’t disturb your comfort.” Western people win they even have empathy for them. Absolutely saint people, angels with huge hearts.

If women weren’t fed for centuries the propaganda of how unworthy and unvalued they are they would never let their children have names of some random man. It’s such a basic logic if it came out of me, I sacrificed the most for it, I’m the one who put the most effort and energy into it than it is mine. The father would never be able to give the child as much as the mother. Even if the mother dies during labour, but in this case it should be even more honourable to have mother’s name. Reanalysing cases like this can help you to relearn how to love yourself and take what’s deservedly yours. Stop being so humble.

Charlie Kirk’s case is the only time when victim blaming is appropriate.

I don’t know what the fuck it was,but I’ve been having nightmares for the past few days. And a couple of days ago I had a sleep paralysis on top of it, and during the paralysis I could hear very clear and realistic my mother’s voice like she was talking right in my ear, but she wasn’t there, just the voice like she was coming from astral. All what she said was “Alexandra...can you hear me?” After that I started to breathe very fast because it’s all I could do. Me and my mother are at no talking terms for over a year now.

I just want to find a wife and run away with her to a farm where we gonna have solar panels, well and fireplace. We will grow our own vegetables, play music instruments, make paintings and read books. Would be cool if we also had friends with the same farms around and we could’ve barter some stuff if we need to. I could’ve make clothes for them. And we could all dance around fire everyday and have a community where we help each other to live peaceful, fulfilling, wholesome, slow life.

Okay so, earlier I wrote a post about Telegram where you can charge your followers for commenting on your posts. And my point was that we are getting lonelier and our basic social instincts are getting monetised. Now I found out about friend.com, which is an ai friend that you carry around like an AirTag and it messages you throughout the day and remembers every little thing about you and gives all the attention you’ve been craving for.

Men be like: women are so emotional. And then open a bike club with unnecessary violence.

I just remembered that you can be as weird as you want as long as you dress cool.

I’ve just noticed something fucked up. The messenger “Telegram” becoming a totally different type of social media. Users have their normal chats and their own channels where all their friends could comment. In the latest update of telegram they added a feature to charge their followers for leaving comments. They also offer Telegram premium which is a monthly subscription that can unlock more features in the app. It seems as classicism, if you have money you can do more. We are getting charged for talking to each other and have opinions, for simple communication. How did we sell our instinct to socialise to capitalism? Also let’s consider the fact that loneliness is on the rise. We are losing control and power as a society. We need to increase the amount of human interactions outside of the internet urgently. The problem is that we all has been feeding our egos and rejecting each other for the smallest flaws and imperfections. We sold love. How could we lose the only thing that we thought it would never be possible to sell? Goodbye love, I hope our hearts will melt soon and you’ll come back.

If you think about it then “normal” is whatever the majority is. But minority doesn’t always mean “not normal” it’s just one of the variations of “normal”. According to this logic neurodiversity would be the minority which could perhaps be the real and only “normal”, then the world actually going insane because most people are insane.

The goal for the next weeks and onwards: giving people compliments without feeling like I’m sexually harassing them. (I’m still gonna be sincere and I ain’t saying shit just to be nice. I respect and value my words!)

do you all realise that the movies that we watch from 60s-80s are movies about our parents and great parents and how they were in childhood, how one of the possible versions of existences lived, or what kind of parents our friends has. But also we can see a little proves of history such as political regimes and discrimination. Can someone admit that movies like “Stepmother” could be a true story? Did children actually behaved like that and fathers actually cared and were involved into family? Were they actually that rich? Also that movie is total absurd and cringe

Does anyone else when sees a child by themselves, get a little panic until you see their parent?

Omg I hate this feeling so much, you know when: “Hi doctors, I’m really sorry to bother you, my apologies in advance for wasting your precious time but I’ve been feeling this pain and it’s very unusual. I’m sorry again, I know it’s not a big deal, there are people with way more serious problems than me. Children are dying at the end of the day, I really shouldn’t be here. I should’ve get a medical degree just in case, what the fuck was I doing with my life. I’m sorry for my existence, I’ll go now and die.” *I saw how this nurse looked at me she definitely thinks I’m an attention seeker*

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Those and I’m yours

I need a second opinion. Am I toxic or not? A few months ago I’ve noticed that my friend chews with her mouth open and very loudly. It doesn’t annoy me but when I was growing up I was told that it’s bad manners just like picking your teeth in public, blowing your nose at the table ect. And let’s be for real it doesn’t make you attractive. I was taking a long time to tell her because I was afraid to come across as rude or toxic. I just told her directly, now she thinks that I was picking on her because we spent too much time together and the small things started to annoy me, she also doesn’t believe me that she eats with her mouth open. I didn’t try to defend myself and let her believe whatever she wants but it did make me feel that I’m being toxic. Maybe I just looked from my perspective, because I would’ve liked to hear constructive criticism especially if it is something that makes me less attractive (of course physical appearance is debatable).

As I mentioned earlier I’m not a techno girl but I always loved it for the environment, for the moment. This summer I went to the techno festival in Essen, Germany with my best friend and one thing I’ve noticed after it that my standards on the crowd went higher. I find it difficult to be at the party where people don’t respect each other, yell into my ear “ where you from”, take their shirts off, etc. I like when communication happens naturally.

Me when she

How to remove all the updates on the apps to come back to pre Ai world?

I just took my flight back. Before I got on a plane I got a call from my grandma. We spoke about meaningless things for a bit and then she asked me if I could see the stars. She said she used to love to look at stars and wonder. Now she keeps trying but it’s hopeless. She is almost fully blind.

I’m so down for making fake dramas in public. Let’s throw everything off the table. Let’s turn that fucking table opposite down. Aggressively yell at me, slap me, push me. Let’s make a scene. Make them watch.

Hometown.

I call people labubu who over consume, brag, trying to make all the money in the world, and their entire lifestyle make them look like victims of capitalism.

I’ve been called “lack of tactfulness” for not appreciating the attention by giving me a useless shit as a gift. For example: earrings - my ears aren’t pierced.

Wasn’t the point of AI and robots to make things cheaper (or even free) and human labour more valuable? Oh I forgot it was made by creatures that meant to have humanity as first priority.

One of the signs of emotional intelligence is when during a debate or discussion, I bring up a weak or silly example/life situation and my opponent still focusing on the point and doesn’t doubt my intelligence. They acknowledge that in this right moment I might’ve not come up with the best example, but it still supports the point. My opponent does not switch their attention on the unnecessary stuff and doesn’t try to put me down. Both staying at the same level at all times.

Shaming tourists so weird. Like I’m sorry that I wasn’t born in every single city in the world with already rooted into me experiences and knowledge of every single country.

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