Honestly, I can relate. But I think it is not your fault. Instagram makes us feel miserable by showing us success and a fake pink world, convincing our brains that this is reality. Apart from that, the gay community is toxic in general, like you should always be young, hot, fit, rich, etc. So instead of showing their real selves, people trade an image. We get used to buying it, and now it’s a bad habit. But there are people who will see the real you. Also, all these apps make you pay subscriptions to really get views or reach, so your people might not even see your posts. Don’t worry too much.