Lately I’ve been thinking about what it really feels like to grow older. Not in a dramatic way, just noticing how my face is slowly changing with time. Small things in the skin, in the expression, in the way I recognize myself. And somehow that’s harder than I expected. I think it feels even stronger in the gay world, where everyone looks good, where people really take care of themselves and appearance matters a lot. It makes it very easy to start questioning yourself, like you have to keep up or fix something before it’s too late. But at the same time, when I see people trying too hard to erase every sign of time, it feels like they slowly lose something real, something that made them look like themselves in the first place. I don’t want to turn this into a fight. I still want to take care of myself, but not from fear. I just want to be able to look in the mirror and recognize who I am, even as things change. I guess no one really tells you how to deal with this part. How do you deal with it? How do you feel about it?