I feel like I’ve been conflating a lot of emotions recently that don’t necessarily need to be as becoming as they seem to be. I’ve been doing mental gymnastics pretty much with myself over a number of things I find as “problems” but I think in reality they are not. It can get pretty confusing trying to differentiate actual depressed feelings* from just basic day to day feelings we go through. I’m not sure if I’ll ever will, it feels depression is just gonna be there with me for the rest of life and all I can do is minimize its impact on myself. I’ve rather have been optimistic though as of late, and I think right now I’m trying to find a balance that is healthy for me but also I can find some groundwork to tackle these big or small issues I’ll inevitably come face to face with, I think I’m growing as a person but also grieving in a sense. I feel happy for myself.