A lot has happened since i last published. I've got a new work, some friendships broke, I've seen beauty, ugliness, I've felt driven by and I have drove myself. Life is fine but I feel there's gotta be more than 8-5 h work, one or two hobbies and housing. Will I find a way? Will i be able to connect with people and feel close and happy? Is it a chimera? Or is it just something that comes and goes?