La que sabe, sabe Que si estoy en esto es para romper Y si me rompo con esto, pues me romperé

Starting a new job, wish me luck 🌷

I feel a change deep down, i have been in a hecatom: i broke with my 4 year ex, someone close died, my ex suddenly was in another relationships, and everything i believed in kinda fell apart. Some time ago i asked for a life more connected with my true self so i understand, i get why everything had to happen the way it did, although it has been though as hell or i didn't like it cause it has driven me here, where i can see myself in the mirror and recognize and love what i see.

Lately I've felt drowned out, sometimes existence makes me feel like nothing make sense and all its a performance and i just find hard finding a meaning

Lately i feel a lot of exposure, i feel seen in my town. I think it’s not bc of how queer i might be (i am and im omw to unwraped it even more) but bc they see the energy that has the freedom and happiness you get once you’ve your truly self and you don’t act and you just be, and that shines. Im also handsome as hell it might be that too hahahahaha

I've started a new job and even though I feel greatful bout the opportunity i feel exhausted. Am I always going to feel the same way? Is it going to change because of love, sex, different work? Lately i found myself lost in the meaning of things and with so little time living without working, what's the point? Who I was before? Who I am now? I was so worried I'd never get a job. Now i do have one, why dont i love it? Why did i care so much till i didn't?

I saw my old text post and wow pretty intense hhahahahha

if its ment to happen it will happen anyway, I'll be fine, I've got time

How important is to connect with people with different points of view but aligned with your essence

I've broke up with my boyfriend some months ago and it's strange how grieving works. Lately i feel more connected than ever with myself bit at the same time i miss the old self i was with him. I see beauty more ever but at the same time feel loneliness bc I'm walking alone in this path. Strange

A lot has happened since i last published. I've got a new work, some friendships broke, I've seen beauty, ugliness, I've felt driven by and I have drove myself. Life is fine but I feel there's gotta be more than 8-5 h work, one or two hobbies and housing. Will I find a way? Will i be able to connect with people and feel close and happy? Is it a chimera? Or is it just something that comes and goes?

I feel anger, my fucking ex was his new brand boyfriend on the same theater show i was and he aint taking responsibility for letting me know as badly as it was! I can't understand why people avoid taking care of things when there has been love. Am i not that important anymore? I just hate how people leave emotional corpses and they just keep leaving unhappy. How can someone be so coward to not face the problem and be just masking? I have a deeply disappointment with the mankind today

Why are you all so far away???! Not fair

I've been founding a lot of knowledge here and there about gender and sexuality but today after a good conversation it cristalized. It is strange how you need to have conflicts in order to be able to grow and to discover yourself