I think the hardest part about artistry is that it’s a very interpersonal process. We practice and create in our own void but then have to share it with others. Even when people love what we do (which is more often than not) we jump to dismiss our work or point out the flaws as a defense mechanism. I’m working to change my perspective to what I DID accomplish and succeed in before noting what I DIDNT.

@jarran that’s lovely, I should definitely think the same way. Our brains are so weird, like… we have to train them to not be shitty? 🙃

I'm actively working on moving past performative confidence. My main internal battle is reconciling my genuine self with the version I think I need to show others. I keep asking myself: Is my baseline 'me' acceptable? I want to reach a point where stillness doesn't immediately trigger that reflex to prove my worth to anyone watching.