to my 21y birthday; I’m grateful to all things I have and lost; fighting and dancing, losing over the little things, friendships and relationship break, living in different apartments, thought they were my new home, and cities that made me belong. Waiting in a room for a clock, but never party. Every single one of them shaped me in ways that felt enormous, feelings I’ve never felt before, and friends I’ve never had before. To a little kid, a friend is something you have to keep forever, but I learned that keeping them is not in your hands, just enjoy every little moment with them, even if it once felt forever.