does anyone else ever feel an anxiety and nervous compulsion about going to big pride parties and gay events?
there’s a part of me that feels like i’m missing out on the gay experience, on the prime of my life…if i’m not forcing myself out there.
don’t get me wrong, the anticipation is great- having something to strive and look forward to can be pretty positive and constructive if you ask me, it’s like a holiday or a vacation in that sense.
but it’s just so expensive, it can be really lonely and stressful sometimes too…especially if you find yourself doing stuff solo. (as i often do)
there’s no guarantee of a positive outcome…and even though you’re supporting the community in visibility and fiscally, there’s an undeniable sacrifice there.
i love being gay, i love supporting the community and seeing people expressing themselves…but god it can be exhausting sometimes.
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anyways, currently debating manchester pride at the end of the month…just wondering if anyone else is in that headspace i guess.
if you’re in the area..and you’re in a similar frame of mind, let me know…i’ll keep you company. (: