Macy (@macy10) - Collective Profile | San Diego, US Recent posts: a woman stands in a narrow cobblestone alleyway in an old european town, leaning against a stone wall under an ancient archway. beyond the arch, a lush green valley is visible under a partly cloudy sky., a lone figure stands on a beach, silhouetted against a vibrant sunset over the ocean. the sky is a dramatic blend of deep blue, purple, and fiery pink, with wispy clouds reflecting the warm light., a scenic view of the ocean and coastline from a sandy path bordered by a wooden fence. the sky is blue with scattered white clouds, and waves gently roll onto the shore., a woman with blonde hair and a red bandana stands on a rocky outcrop overlooking a crystal-clear turquoise ocean. small boats are docked in a cove with white buildings nestled into the hillside., a cluster of tall palm trees stand against a gray, overcast sky, with the ocean and waves visible in the background., a fluffy golden doodle dog lies on the grass with its tongue out, next to a frisbee. the dog is in a sunny outdoor setting with trees and buildings in the background..

Macy @macy10

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Healing takes its time. For example, I have been in therapy for 8yrs. I could only access so much of myself for so long. I was guarded without meaning to be. I shamed myself into an internal prison where connection seemed scary. Then something happened that broke me completely open & it’s like I could suddenly breathe. The most powerful therapy sessions followed. The ability to drop into my ❤️ & give it, freely to myself & others. To be vulnerable, compassionate, & deeply considerate of others. What a gift. Sometimes it takes something seismic to allow us deeper access to ourselves & our ❤️.

Healing and growth take work. It takes a willingness to bear yourself and your pain without avoidance, without defensiveness, with a raw unfiltered lens of acknowledging and feeling the impact of the experiences that shaped us and our inner world, and our ability to connect with ourselves and others. What is the fear of truly being seen or known about? Not just being seen in the joy, but the vulnerability of who we are. I want to be authentic & vulnerable & I want to hold others’ vulnerability with such care. We all deserve to be seen and known into our depths.💜

A stroll with a view☀️

I wish I was as self-reflective then as I am now. The only thing that was reflecting last summer was that water. I wish I could’ve been more in my heart then. We don’t have the capacity until we do. It’s a journey. Accountability. I always thought it was so difficult, but it turns out it is such a freeing experience.

Audiobook thoughts: Shame isnt an emotion, it’s a process. If I can shame myself first, I will avoid vulnerability/the emotion underneath, & risk of rejection. Although, as adults, this often leads to what we fear most: rejection/loss. As kids we had to shame ourselves because it’s too painful to think our caregivers cant meet us, so we make ourselves wrong. As adults, this disconnection from ourselves leads us to disconnection from others. The other side of self-shaming is self compassion, self love, self acceptance. & when we can experience those things, we have more capacity for connection.

We both love to sit in the grass and be out in the sun.☀️