what have you celebrated about yourself lately?

I think that’s one of the strangest things about losing someone who is still alive. Nothing disappears all at once. The person leaves first. The habits take longer. The conversations you continue inside your head take even longer. And the future might be the last thing to leave. I don’t only miss you. I miss things that never even happened. Trips we talked about but never took. Summers we never reached. Ordinary Sundays. Getting older. Going to the swimming pool, just the two of us Spending one New Year’s Eve together.

Just completed my spontaneous 72 hours no food fasting (only water) 🍽️❌ My longest autophagy experiment so far. Day 1 was the most unfamiliar. A bit hangry here and there. Day 2 my head got really clear and I could work well. The obvious part I didn't see coming: I train a lot, so there's always this calculation running about getting enough protein in. For three days it was just gone. That felt freeing. Whats your experiece with longer fast? What stuck with you afterwards and did you archive any specific goals?

Take ownership of your life. You must put yourself first— always keeping your family, friends, and the community in mind- so that everyone benefits from the best version of you. 🪐

🏳️‍🌈La Piscine 2026 💦 🦄Ostie! We had fun🤩

this seems kinda ridiculous, convince me not to delete

The happy-sad u feel taking a 8AM taxi home from the afters.

I wanted you to make me feel safe when I didn’t yet know how to create safety inside myself. I wanted your love to answer questions it could never answer: Am I enough? Am I desirable? Will you choose me? Will you stay? And somewhere along the way, I stopped asking whether I was choosing myself. The world keeps moving with an almost offensive normality. People go swimming. Trains arrive. cats demand food. Friends send messages. Plants grow new leaves. Summer comes back. I laugh sometimes. And every time I laugh, I discover that my life continued without asking your permission.

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