Story of my life! But… you know what?!? Fuck’em! Let’s bring color to this dark world on our own.

I really don’t know how to bring color anymore. I’m just slowly fading.

be your own choice, love ❤️ (and fuck em)

As someone who spent a lot of his life not being chosen or prioritised by people, I really feel this. But through a lot of self-reflection (and some counselling), I’ve learned to quickly step away from people who don’t choose me. I’ve felt much lighter since.

@justkp well, I’ve done my work with myself and together with a therapist, but I still feel this so hard. I know I’m worth of love and so on, and also have a lot to give, so I really struggle with this.

@solovaktmstare The way you feel is completely valid. I do think our patterns can pull us towards people who don’t actually prioritise us. I’ve had this before, and when I stepped back and looked at it more objectively, I had to ask what was actually there, not what I was projecting onto it. Once I did that, it all fell apart quite quickly.

@justkp I’m so afraid that if I pull nack on people that don’t choose me, I will be so lonely. It scares me. I don’t have many ”friends” as it is and ro find new one’s feels impossible.

@solovaktmstare I don’t have many friends either, but I found the joy in being selective with people myself. I much rather have those couple of friends who genuinely choose me than someone who just considers me as an option or a back up. Does it still hurt when I fall into the trap? Of course, I’d be lying if I said otherwise, it doesn’t just go away with a snap. But I’m no longer willing to spend weeks or months (forbid years) longing for them. I just let them go shortly after the signs show, because they’re no use for me and I deserve better than that.