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Mattie (@pnklmnade) - Collective Profile | Middlesex, US i write songs and poems. cat parent. music lover. vinyl collector. interior design obsessor. good energy only 🧘🏼 Follow @mdentonn on Instagram. Recent posts: three friends pose in front of a large, ornate fountain at a winery on a sunny day. the fountain features statues and cascading water, with umbrellas and seating areas visible in the background., a person with short, brown hair and round glasses poses for a photo in front of a window at night. they are wearing a light beige sweater vest over a white shirt and have tattoos on their arm., a large, leafy monstera plant sits in a white pot in a room with teal and white paneled walls. a sign that reads "laundry makes me a basket case" hangs on the wall above the plant., a person wearing large red sunglasses and glitter makeup poses for a close-up photo outdoors. they are sitting on the grass with a crowd visible in the background., a person wearing large red sunglasses and a black t-shirt with a dollar sign on it kneels on a blanket at an outdoor event. they are wearing denim shorts and silver boots are visible on another person in the background., a man poses in front of a white subaru suv, wearing pink cargo pants and a dark jacket over a white t-shirt. the image is framed with a film border, giving it a vintage aesthetic., a man with curly hair and glasses smiles while sitting at a table in a cafe. he is wearing a grey sweater and black pants., a person with curly brown hair and heart-shaped sunglasses takes a selfie in front of a refrigerator stocked with drinks. a pen is clipped to their shirt., a close-up, medium shot of a person wearing glasses and looking at the camera. the person has curly brown hair and is wearing a blue shirt. a plant is in the foreground, and a red background is visible., a person with short, curly brown hair and glasses poses in a strapless top and a patterned skirt. they are wearing necklaces and have tattoos on their arms., a person stands in a hotel room, partially obscured by sheer curtains. they are wearing a dress and have tattoos visible on their arm., a red background with white pixelated text that reads "held here, with love" and "2026" at the bottom., a man poses for a mirror selfie, wearing pink-tinted glasses and a striped sweater. the photo is taken in a dimly lit room., a person stands in front of a full-length mirror, taking a selfie. they are wearing black underwear and have tattoos on their arm. the background shows a doorway with a colorful scarf hanging on it, a backpack, and a hat on a hook. sunlight streams i, a man with glasses and a striped polo shirt poses outdoors in a park setting with trees and stone structures., .
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Mattie @pnklmnade

i write songs and poems. cat parent. music lover. vinyl collector. interior design obsessor. good energy only 🧘🏼
Middlesex, US
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i just want someone who gets me, not only that but someone who wants to know me. every time i talk to someone on the apps, im always met with conversation that burns out quickly because there is a lack of want or curiosity. it’s always, “hey how are you?” and never “hey, mercury retrograde is messing with me right now, how is it for you?” the how are you’s seem routine based, and don’t even get me started on when someone just says, “i’m good.” like excuse me??? do you not care how i am? immediate no no. i’m just so over it. the last guy i had a genuine conversation with who knew how to keep it, i found out a week later that he has a girlfriend. not in the chill-polyamorous way, but in the she-doesn’t-know-but-she-knows-tove-lo kind of way (iykyk). i also had a meaningful conversation from grindr of all places and learned how he was homeless in college and lived in someone’s shed in the backyard with no AC in the heat of August. it was beautiful, all the stories he told about being on drugs and not really caring about anything except the experience of what it’s like to be young back in the 2000’s. and then just like that, i’ve never heard back from him again. but i understand some connections and conversations are made only once and never again. i just seem to ponder on my ex more and more due to not having someone new in my life since. the memories unravel through inanimate objects, a laugh i hear in a restaurant, songs i know were written about him specifically, and my mom has brought up missing him a suspicious amount of times lately. there aren’t enough words to embody how im feeling. i don’t even know what i feel most days. but to sum this all up… i crave for someone to drive me up the walls. challenge my routines. take up space in my life. taste when i’m hungry. deal the cards with me. i’m not sure if this makes sense whatsoever. but this is how i’m feeling right now.
Three friends pose in front of a large, ornate fountain at a winery on a sunny day. The fountain features statues and cascading water, with umbrellas and seating areas visible in the background.
meet me at the fountain at the winery
you can kiss me all you want but you won’t miss me like i want
A person with short, brown hair and round glasses poses for a photo in front of a window at night. They are wearing a light beige sweater vest over a white shirt and have tattoos on their arm.
oh how i miss lisboa
Photo by pnklmnade
portrait of frog (2026)
i light myself on fire, over and over to keep the spark in your pitch dark eyes from leaving completely. - untitled (may 24, 2026)
A large, leafy Monstera plant sits in a white pot in a room with teal and white paneled walls. A sign that reads "Laundry makes me a basket case" hangs on the wall above the plant.
it’s time to repot and i’m nervi
A person wearing large red sunglasses and glitter makeup poses for a close-up photo outdoors. They are sitting on the grass with a crowd visible in the background.
its going down
A person wearing large red sunglasses and a black t-shirt with a dollar sign on it kneels on a blanket at an outdoor event. They are wearing denim shorts and silver boots are visible on another person in the background.
kesha kesha kesha $$$
has anyone else not felt like themselves lately? or is it just me?
A man poses in front of a white Subaru SUV, wearing pink cargo pants and a dark jacket over a white t-shirt. The image is framed with a film border, giving it a vintage aesthetic.
neapolitan ice cream core
A man with curly hair and glasses smiles while sitting at a table in a cafe. He is wearing a grey sweater and black pants.
wake n bake
A person with curly brown hair and heart-shaped sunglasses takes a selfie in front of a refrigerator stocked with drinks. A pen is clipped to their shirt.
barista life
A close-up, medium shot of a person wearing glasses and looking at the camera. The person has curly brown hair and is wearing a blue shirt. A plant is in the foreground, and a red background is visible.
A person with short, curly brown hair and glasses poses in a strapless top and a patterned skirt. They are wearing necklaces and have tattoos on their arms.
new year’s day (2026)
all roads lead back to you or however the saying goes i’d run into dead ends with nowhere to turn but home dirty knees, no carpet clean, from all my wilderness and now the pinot makes the hero seem so villainess - unfinished song
A person stands in a hotel room, partially obscured by sheer curtains. They are wearing a dress and have tattoos visible on their arm.
this hotel room is haunted with spilled ranch
A red background with white pixelated text that reads "Held Here, With Love" and "2026" at the bottom.
so i started a new project/website that is similar to the unsent project! but it will be officially out tomorrow! i’m so excited. giving you all early access!! pls let me know what you all think!! i want to build community and this is where the words you still carry can be held, anonymously always
i see the garden in you the butterflies tickle my heart from translating your nature
sweet apricot, tastes just like the love i had spread it on like paint, under the sun with his hands in my back pockets isn’t this what it’s all about.
A man poses for a mirror selfie, wearing pink-tinted glasses and a striped sweater. The photo is taken in a dimly lit room.
new profile pic
A person stands in front of a full-length mirror, taking a selfie. They are wearing black underwear and have tattoos on their arm. The background shows a doorway with a colorful scarf hanging on it, a backpack, and a hat on a hook. Sunlight streams i
about to start my therapy session wish me luck <3
A man with glasses and a striped polo shirt poses outdoors in a park setting with trees and stone structures.
gaudí
A person wearing glasses and a yellow t-shirt with the words "be authentic" printed on it poses in front of a retro-patterned fabric background.
felt like lana del rey in video games mv
i’m a barista with big dreams, but it feels so hard to find time to work on things or go to a studio that i trust. when i do have time, i have little to no energy. i know this kind of job is easy to burnout from, but i do love making coffees and connecting with people in that way. i’ve been in the service industry since i was 17 and im not sure how to pursue what i know i have in me. maybe it’s fear. maybe it’s sadness. maybe it’s hope. maybe it’s a combination of it all. idk, i’m just stressed all the time about this sort of thing and needed to get that out of my system!
A person wearing glasses and a yellow t-shirt sits at a table with two colorful cocktails. The person is smiling and holding one of the drinks.
drink drank drunk
started therapy and i already lied about something ahhhh! this is why i need therapy
A person with glasses and short, light brown hair takes a mirror selfie in a bright pink button-down shirt and black shorts. The person is wearing white sneakers and a white t-shirt underneath the pink shirt. The mirror has a rainbow-colored frame.
happy pride ༝༚༝༚
A close-up shot of a person wearing sunglasses and eye makeup, with a blurred outdoor event in the background.
A woman in a green dress smiles while surrounded by a garden full of flowers. The sun is setting, casting a warm glow over the scene.
A close-up shot of a young man wearing glasses and looking off to the side. Stars and a colorful gradient overlay the image, with text that reads "held here, with love."
starting this brand, this website, this project has meant the world! check it out if you’d like❤️
A person stands outside in front of a white garage and a white SUV. They are wearing pink pants and a brown jacket, with pink sunglasses on their head.
pink PANTheress🩷
A close-up shot of a deep purple sangria cocktail garnished with fresh mint leaves. The drink is served in a stemmed glass and sits on a wooden table in what appears to be a bar or restaurant setting.
going out in sangria style
A person with red hair and glasses is seen on a camera screen, with their hands in their hair. The screen displays filming controls and a timestamp.
i’m officially filming again and it feels good!
A black shelf mounted on a gray wall displays several cat-themed decorations. On the left is a pixelated cat figurine, followed by a sleeping cat figurine on a purple cushion, a small potted cactus, and a miniature cat tree with a calico cat figurine
starting to make my cat’s section a little more cozy
A top-down view of a frothy, bright green matcha latte with ice cubes, set on a rustic wooden table. Text overlays offer a message of self-care and mindfulness.
i luv matcha
A person with glasses and tattoos is smoking a cigarette at night, leaning on a table. They are wearing a black top and a patterned skirt.
ethel sun. slayyyter moon. kesha rising.
A non-binary person wearing pink sunglasses and a blue crochet sweater sits on a brown leather couch, posing with their hands near their head.
i have apple music so i can’t post this with a song but imagine this with “cannibalism” by slayyyter playing
my dreams are lucid, as were the memories and now i’m the age you were when you told me you loved me drunk on your bedroom floor, i drove an hour to exist with you in.
A wooden shelf filled with various trinkets and collectibles. The shelf is mounted on a wall and features a variety of items.
one of my many trinket shelves
A hand holds an iced coffee with a sprig of white flowers. The coffee is in a clear plastic cup, and the background shows a sunny day.
my barista is making me blush
A close-up shot of a hand with an IV drip inserted. A flower tattoo is visible on the hand.
hi, i just had my fifth surgery and would love any words of encouragement or humor or anything positive right about now!!!
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