this seems kinda ridiculous, convince me not to delete

I think that’s one of the strangest things about losing someone who is still alive. Nothing disappears all at once. The person leaves first. The habits take longer. The conversations you continue inside your head take even longer. And the future might be the last thing to leave. I don’t only miss you. I miss things that never even happened. Trips we talked about but never took. Summers we never reached. Ordinary Sundays. Getting older. Going to the swimming pool, just the two of us Spending one New Year’s Eve together.

Heartbreak like I’ve never experienced it before. Boy it hurts💔

Add me on co-star 🌙 mattbenjammin

Take ownership of your life. You must put yourself first— always keeping your family, friends, and the community in mind- so that everyone benefits from the best version of you. 🪐

Here we go again - #🐻

Nothing to say, still depressive bitch

Just completed my spontaneous 72 hours no food fasting (only water) 🍽️❌ My longest autophagy experiment so far. Day 1 was the most unfamiliar. A bit hangry here and there. Day 2 my head got really clear and I could work well. The obvious part I didn't see coming: I train a lot, so there's always this calculation running about getting enough protein in. For three days it was just gone. That felt freeing. Whats your experiece with longer fast? What stuck with you afterwards and did you archive any specific goals?

Booty small or is it the dysmorphia? (I‘m serious)