I’m thinking way too much how I’m being perceived by other people....

I’m thinking way too much how I’m being perceived by other people. It’s tiring and annoying. It’s making me rethink things I’ve done or said in the past like I did something wrong. Like I hurt people with my words. How do I stop playing these scenarios in my head and blaming myself for being too honest, too sarcastic, too direct. I am me and I want to live freely and authentically. If people can’t take me well then I’ll find those that can. I am so tired regretting things I’ve done or said to people. The only person I really need to stop being so hard on is myself.

anseo

For the first time in my career I’ve been signed off due to burnout 🫠 My default personality’s friendly golden retriever but damn the past few months have been back to back pressure and I buckled. I need to do a lot of soul searching about what to fix and what career switch is right for me. Unhelpfully, burnout causes brain fog so 🫠 step one is just piecing my brain back together. I’ve no idea what I’m doing but Louie’s gentle friendship has been healing. He doesn’t demand anything from me, he’s just happy to pad alongside me in the woods and keep me company while I figure this out.

jcob

This queerling is the most helpful person I’ve ever met. And we met on @collective! We’d been chatting here for some time. When I landed in Toronto, they drove me from the airport to my Airbnb. They invited me to their Thursday vegan potlucks, which was a great way to meet new queers. They offered me an apartment to rent in the house they live in. I lived there all by myself. They helped me navigate Canada. And when I was sick. And many other times. And they drove me to the airport on my last day. I wouldn’t have made it without you. Thanks a billion for everything, @biscuit 🏳️‍🌈🩷